Squeaky-Scorpio58

but heck, i haven't been online for long at a time in a while. things are ok. but lately i been wanting to go back where i came from tho its not long til i'm over it.

well i got to see kevin but moving to dad's is sorta oughta the question

well right now i might b moving 2 dad's after the holidays. but before i get that far ahead of myself i might get to c kevin thursday (assuming i can teach him how to get down where i live)i'm a bit flustered at trying to give dirrections to someone who is getting lost mentally ab the roads

well today about an hr ago, kev asked if i was ready to end the break & needless 2 say i said i was so yay i'm not single ne more. i got really excited

life sux! i can officially say i've had my heart ripped out & it's all my family's fault!!! they woudn't keep hounding me about my bf cuz he's black!!!!! he finally told me to leave him alone... finally he just said that we would take a break until after christmas and if i still wanted to be with him to let him know then said "have a good break or break up which ever it is cuz idk right now"

idk what to do, i've balled my eyes out & idk what will happen. i was afraid that my family would screw things up and thats exactly what they did!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!! They "supposedly" want me to be happy but take away what makes me happiest!!!!!!! WHAT SENSE DOES THAT MAKE?!?!?!?!

I knew something like this was bound to happen & knew it would hurt like hell when it did, but didn't realize it would hurt this damn much! I thought that we could get around my family though, but
guess what: thats what i get for thinking!!!!